Game, it all seems

So fast, so lovely

The drizzle among the leaves,

Underneath, a couple of geeks.....

A story; of love, of peace

Beautiful minds that care

For the geeks, for each other

But, hiding what they feel

Till one day they have to leave.....

Day and night they dream

A future together, they see

Love is in the air

But, confusion plays its dumb game.....

They wait, months and years

Hope to see each other again

When they would open their hearts

And live life, somewhere far away................

A friend of mine asked me to describe the eyes and smile of an imaginary girl, to see how spontaneous I can be... this is how I described....

Eyes, I am fascinated
So deep, I sink into them
The twinkle I see
Magnificient, I love it
Flushed by tears
They seem burnished
Eyes that fascinate me....

Smile, that makes me smile
A pacifist, assuaging every pain
Pleasant, like cold breeze on my face
Blushed face, Deadly anasthetic
Smile, that takes my breath away....

A Trip to Heaven!!!!!!
Spontaneously written.......

The world beyond Life
Beauty that Mystifies
Divinity, Feels like an Elixir.......
Myriad stars,
Light to the Dark beings........
Munificient souls,
Displaying the value of Love,
Breathing Life
Into the souls of the Peer
That seeked pleasures
In a world of Penury
During their time.........
Smiles glitter everywhere
Love is spread magnanimously
To all beings there....
There is no discrimination
Color, Race, Religion
They have no place
In "JANNAT"
Where Humanity alone survives....


AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

From the Ashes!!!!!!!
This poem is a shade too strong.. I beg your Pardon friends, If you thnk the poem is violent.... It is just a product of One emotion of mine...... Sorry again!!!!!

The mask is lost,

The "ME" again rises

From the ashes of the ones

Destroyed by Past 'Raging Fires'......

Melting metal, thunderous roars;

A call of revenge...

Blood thirsty soul, ruined of its peace

Numb all this while

Restarined from the emotional world

A smile stuck on my face

Doesn't exist anymore...

Run for your soul,

Run for your Peace..

Your game is over....

Its your time to see

What it is like,

To play with volcanoes fast asleep...

AMEN!!!!!!

A LETTER
As the Day passes
And the night arrives,
I'm Eager
Waiting to go to sleep
Guess Why!!, Dear
Then Begins a beautiful Phase
The only time I get to see you...
As the sun rises and Dawn Breaks
I don't want to get off bed
I stay there for a few more minutes
Just don't feel like releasing you
From my arms,
As I lose hold finally
I shall say
"Oh girl of my dreams,
Do wait till I meet you this Night"

Random Thoughts....

I really don't know
Will it ever happen again
The Days seemed to be Fun
Till all turned out to be a Game...

Smiles, Coffee and more
Love was in the Air
Or may be it was a dream
Trying to be a reality.....

Our pleasures knew no bounds
The faces were gleaming
Like the Flame on the Phoenix Tail
At least Before you realised
It was just a candle flame........

Now, when things are not the same
Smile still sticks to my face
Seems like I ve moved on
Or May be that is what i want to portray....

Anger, Lies, these are so miniscule
In My world which is filled
With the smiles of the people I care
And Happiness still hides somewhere.....

Whatever One may say
We know what we share
Heartbreaks, Bugged life
These comprise just a Passing Phase
" Love life anyday,Dear"
Is the Motto
Follow it, and
Smile will show the way....

Nightmare returns
I am sure this is not one of the conventional writes.... But, Just wanted to post it....

I am Confused

Seems like I have seen something; Wild

Taken over by Fear

Really want to run for a Leak

Try Moving, but am too scared

Anxiety sets in,

Making things worse than ever

I am Shivering,

Feels like I am being Frozen.......

Sweat all over my face,

Feels like I am being roasted............

A state of mixed thoughts, mixed emotions....

I finally gather courage

And look out of my nightmare.......

I run for the leak I had been longing for

Back to sleep, hugging my pillow,

Someone to hold on to

Next time I am Scared..........

Incomplete......
Days pass, nights come along

The journey in the Dark has taken its toll

Enough pain I have seen

But, my soul wants to go on......

Many things I saw

Broken hearts, flushed eyes

Tried to understand them

Mission accomplished only partially.....

Tears I shed, Tears I wiped

Depressed by the dark I had seen

I thought My adventure is over

Till I realised There is a lot to go;

Before I retreat.....

Smile, A mask I wear

To make contact with other smiles

Regaining my vigour

I start from where I had last been.....

Life is an Ice cream
Life is like an icecream
You enjoy it before it melts
Make haste Friends
Don't let it drip away.......

These days we often see
Smoke billows every other moment
Every time it happens,
I think what if it had eaten my life away.....

The feeling that arises
Is that of fear
Fear of delaying what I must do
To make this Ice cream 'taste better than ever'

I have surely realised
A melting ice cream can be frozen
It may not regain its fine shape
But, it can still be enjoyed the same.....

Make haste my dear men
Freeze the dripping life
Take action immediately
before it is too late........

The Divine Lady
Lost in the dark woods

Light is what I seek

To find a right path to the world outside

The world each one of us seeks for....

Hunting for the Goal

I curse the forces

That pushed me into the woods

Putting me through this turmoil...

The visions, the powers

I never wanted them

But, being born with that

Is no pleasure, just Pain....

Fear of the visions coming true

A torture I never wish to know

Is it a divine boon

Or am I the Satan's pleasure....

The shadows run behind me

To take me among their clan

"Come to me; Sweetheart", they say

To put me in the dark forever.....

I run, I run....

Fear takes over my power...

Power to select my vision

To pull my soul out of the mystic woods....

And, I see light

Angelic beauty, mother like grace

A lady descents like a kite

Carrying me in her arms, She flies away....

I look at the shadows

One last glance....

Despair in them, burning them to ashes.....

I then glance at the lady's Divine face

A glare, i close my eye

But, i hear her voice

"Son, don't venture wildly", she says

I feel protected, a warm hug

The lady's face i see

The Divine Lady I shall remember

The Saviour of my soul

From the horrors of the satanic shadows....

The light that removed darkness from my thoughts.....

AMEN!!!!!!

Nightmare....

The devil's cry I hear
Dark sky and hazy moon
A lonely man, I am
Standing on the edge of a haunted cliff.....

I see giant bats flying
Seems like they crave for my blood
I duck, i crouch
But they seem to be seein my moves..

I decide to run
A run for my life
The fear takes over my soul
I can't think anymore....

I trip, a bad fall
I am surrounded all over
They were no bats
They were my own thoughts personified.......

I see another crowd approaching
A very shrill cry, a shriek
I try to get a better look
Straining my eyes to see in the dark
And suddenly, there is light...
I then realise my mind wandered
Into a dimension i ve always wanted to see...

Eyes as pretty as yours
Hair, golden beauty
Words like drops of mercury
Taking away my breath each time i see you......
My heart beats a million times
The world runs at a slow pace
Time seems to be under your control
As i walk the path of petals....................
Waiting to see you sometime
To burn the wood with my fire.....
Playing games I ve never seen
A feeling that is new to my soul.....
It has happened a millon times before
But, this is something fresh......
The day this dream comes true
I would not know how to react.....
I am pretty sure
I will laugh my heart out that day
Happiness will finally take over...............


AMEN!!!!

A malicious life
That of a swine
Waiting to be slaughtered
Not knowing when that would come.....

It seems to me
That will be my life too
If I don't make haste
Stand up against the odds
The evils, Lies.....

The sand, breeze, water
All have done their part
Their share of work
By teaching me something in life....
My turn has finally come
To act as my teachers have taught.....

amen!!!!

The Walk Of My Life.........
I walk alone
On the sea shore
The walk for my life
A life of many others
Concuring with me in my thoughts........

Every wave that reaches the shore
Brushes across my feet
Cleaning the sand on it, as it comes
And leaving back fresh sand
As it goes........

The tiny crabs
Run horizontal
Almost confused where to go
But finally, they go away
Deep into the earth
Where they have nothing to fear......
Or they think that way.......

The salty breeze
With the essence of the sea
Carrying the flavours of various lands
Reach here into my nose.....
There are fragrances
And also stench
Depends on what my nose senses.....
Or what i actually want to sense....

I walk alone
On the sea shore
The walk of my life.......
To learn new avenues
To understand the truth that has been written
By Him, what people say MAKTUB!!
From the dear mother
Mother nature......

I walk alone
On the shore of the sea of wisdom.......

amen!!!!

The summer arrives
The scorching sun
The burning weather
temperatures over 40
The deathly Sun
That is what people say......

One hot day
I am out with friends
All dressed up
and those sexy shades
I wear on my face.....
Protecting my eyes
From deadly rays of the Sun.......

I am dripping
Like everybody else around me.....
The sweat rolls down my face
Like a bead of transparent pearl....
One such drop falls On my shades
Then one more
And more and more......

My glasses are wet
My vision gets blurred....
I remove them to wipe off my sweat
And sixth sense clicks again.......
Thoughts arise
About the way life is.......
Realisations yet again
Another poem in the making......
About blurring of Life
Like the vision Blurred by sweat on the shades......


That is my life
And yours; each one's life.......
The way love Closes our eyes....
And anger closes our brain......
A barrier that can't be overcome
Till it is wiped off, someday.......

I suffer from a lack of words
To express my thoughts
To my dear poets
And friends......
I am unable to write
A poem on what i realised......
But, i surely can
Do it someday....
That day is not far off
May be this is not the time
But as the time arises
My words shall flow
As the sweat flowed on my face
And my glasses of wisdom.....

AMEN!!!!!!

The beauty of nature
Many people are ignorant
So was I for long
Till one night I never slept......
I sat all night in the balcony
Taking pleasure of my solitude
In the darkness of the night
Darkness I have always adored.......

I dreamt with my eyes open
Looked at the bats swish and swoop
Enjoyed the hoot of the owls
The howling of the dogs and wolves.....
Looking at the stars
I thought
Why is darkness hated by the peer????

Time passed
I still sat half naked
On one of the coldest nights.....
When I saw the colour of the sky change....
The darkness had not disapeared
But, there was light too.....
The sky was not dark anymore
A purple haze I did see......
The clouds collecting at the east....
The breeze hitting my face
Making me shiver
But, that was beautiful......
The darkness was actually mixing
With the light......
The attraction of the opposites
The most beautiful view of my life......



The Light finally mixes
With the Darkness of my Life.......

The touch of the brush
the canvas feels
The music of each stroke
so subtle, so Divine......
The softness of each twist
The beauty of the fine strokes
The yin, The yang
The charges attract,
Sparks fly,
The flame is lit.....
As light converges
With the darkness of life.....


The unmatchable darkness of my life!!!!

changing the world.......

Another day in my life begins
I have no clue what i have to face
I sit with my eyes closed
And pray to Him
Ask Him to take the bad away......

The day has now passed
Life is still the same
Nothing has changed in this world
Nothing, i think, would change
Until each one of us
Decides to change.......

I go to bed....
I sit with my eyes closed; yet again
And pray to Him...
This time i ask
For the strength
To change myself for good....
And fulfill my role
In changing the world......

AMEN!!!!!

I Dream.....................


Walking through the streets
I dreamt
What would it be like
If the world had only you and me,
If the earth was only our home.....

I dreamt about how we could
Keep talking poems, philosophy,
Music, Books......
Life would be a small thing.......

But then i realise
This is not possible....
'cause, I need my Ma
And on further thought
I need many more people
And so do you......

So I expanded the population
But, it seemed never to stop....
That is when i realised
I had not been dreaming of the World
But, it was my world..
I was dreaming
Of the world I created
For myself.......

Then, I finally understood
You too could be only a part
Of my day dream
A dream that may never come true.........

A Fanatic's Philosophy.....

The World's conspiracy
The games time plays
All is a part of life
Fair in life and death......

Destiny, I believe
Is fake, no way real....
It is all in the head
One's thoughts
That forms one's fate.........

The past has to die
From one's thoughts
It is over and you can't change it.....
Don't let the future haunt you
It is not in your hands........
All you have is the present
And don't waste this
In pursuit of your future......

Be true to yourself
You can't cheat anybody here
But for yourself.......
You are just a Kid
Play like one
On life's lap......

Live life to the full
Love it, Flirt with it.......
Have no fear Baby!!!!
Take life in its stride
And don't play against the spin...........

Death should never be an option
You don't hold the rights
To decide when you must die......
God is there to see
When it is time to leave this World.....

Weird it may seem
A Fanatic is talking philosophy
It is no Crap, dear
This is life
And we must face it........

the knight thinks.....
Sometimes, i think
what would it be like
if i had not been a knight....
the armoured hero
with a lion's pride.......

Every time i thought
i had the same dream....
a few beautiful conversationsan
unknown divinity
a guardian angel; my own......

I realised the truth
the reason i am a knight....
Had i been a king
I would never have to fight
to save my life, my pride...
for people are there
to give their lives for my soul....

A knight i am; proud indeed
trying to survive at all times...
Many wars, many lives
i shall fight for them all
i shall face the world
where only the fittest survives...

I finally decide
i shall be a knight
The Knight of the Cure.....
I shall fight till the end of time.....

AMEN!!!

those lanes are haunted

the evil rules his mind now

good you weren't embraced

the hopes only increase.....

better turn back

turn soon or you will fall

a prey to the evil lanes...

remain patient, oh li'l girl

your abode waits for you....

the day is not far off

and you will rule him next.....

Her eyes are truly mysterious
seem to consume
the light that escapes the black hole..
kohl rimmed, intoxicating lashes
mere depiction of the beauty....

The eyes that conquer the soul
soul of the world, the elixir of life....
the eyes that transmit power
power that has been attained
the eyes that are the gate way
to the spirit of the Lady...
The lady who owns these eyes
the lady i hallucinate; my princess....

a conquest

life is rocking on d waves......
i m in d middle of a storm...
its gettin tough......
huge waves......
but i know i ll come out of the storm...
and then make history......
history of the victory
of a mortal over God's games....
n the storm he caused.......

games time plays......
I live in this world
world of blame
false accusations
pressure, emotion and hope.....
facing people i shouldn't be facing
seeing things i never wanted to see.....
blamed for something i could never do.......
psychological harassment
tortured on an electric chair.......
i face fear, anxiety, anger, sorrow
what don't i face now?
i have lost hope
lack the confidence i flaunted......
the courage of the knight finally falls.......
the knight now stays alone
in his world......
away from the people he admired
the ones he loved and hated too....
the depressed self of his
can take no more pressure.......
he seeks for truth
the truth that is lost
in the woods of blame
the truth lets him down
and snatches the ray of hope....
the light is put off
the fire extinguishes......
but, somewhere within
he does know
he will light it again
as time heals all pain.....
searching for that light
he wanders alone....
on the boulevard of thorny plants....
he shall succeed
all prayers shall be answered
when time decides
it is time to stop the game.......

when i'm gone!!!!!!!!!!A day, like any other day
i dream, very unique
a dream of love
of life on a bed of roses
surrounded by cascades
and women, the most beautiful
i am pampered, cuddled
and treated like a baby..
fed on the most delicious food
sweets, milk, fruits; what not?
but, nothing pleases me as much
as the life outside this world..
a world of comforts
world so artificial; unreal.....
i jump off the bed
the women stand aghast......
that's when i wake up
and realise the truth..
the dream is the future
a future i shall be responsible for.
a world of comforts, vices and false pleasures...
all that corrupts; addicts.....
sure to happen
WHEN I AM GONE...................

flame of music

The night falls today
something i ve often seen
the night filled with fear
fear caused by anger
a fire in me
burns me all along....
now i curse myself
for all my anger has done
to me and my people around
destroying the harmony......
now i realise....
the music plays in my life again
the music that soothens my soul,
puts my anger off
like the water calms the fire....
but the fire burns in me
a new fire again
that of faith,
music, desire........
i shall live along
with the most inspiring fire...
fire that fuels my life
fire that is my music.....

first experiencethis is a poem i wrote for a lecturer who had recently come to teach us..... she is supposedly this "hot" 22 yr old masters student who has replaced a teacher who resigned...... all guys in the class seem to be really attentive in the most boring subject cos of her presence......

Early in the morning
I wake up to realise
I may have to live
One more damned day in college.
A damned tuesday it was
Very boring, very long
A day filled by lab
A lab where nobody wants to work..
Four hours I spend there
Totally vexed, I am released
Then i suffer two more hours,
Two damned lectures to hear..
Now it had become
A matter of my life and death.
All tired, completely fed up
I sit and wait,
For another hour of boredom, murder and death.
There you enter my class,
My life and soul.
So pretty, so fine
Your first time as well as mine..
The first time you teach,
My first time i concentrate.
Every moment you smile
I skip a hundred beats..
You speak, I blush
A beautiful replenishment; memories
I wait for you to enter again,
My class, my life, my soul........

monsoon bluesThe games we play
So different, yet so similar
A balancing act of sorts
Always on the edge of the wall.
The game of love
In which we have forayed
separated by thoughts
And still so close;
As close as lightning and thunder
The lightning strikes, followed by the thunder.

Most people hate the thunder,
The fact that thunder scares
How dumb these people are
Admiring the lightning
Forgetting that the 'streak' preys...
Could they ever imagine
If the lightning and thunder are talking
The lightning that is ever confused
But,the thunder so intense
Both move hand in hand,
But they are yet so far.......

confusion.....
Here, I sit having lost myself
I am not the person I was yesterday
Your eyes,charm,words,touch,memories
They stay imbibed deep within me.
I know they will stay till I dance in my coffin..
Now,its a part of me
My body,heart and soul.
Now, you are a part of my soul;Me.
Baby!I know I have fallen for you
But I'm confused
Just not sure
If I call this love,
Or just one of those sweet,shortlived feelings
Those I often have....
Have I got the right sparks?
Are you the one I have been waiting for?
Am I really lucky?
Am I really happy?
Or,am I just building castles in the air?
A beautiful shortlived world of fantasy,is it?
I have no clue
I ask myself these questions..
The only answer I know
The only one I can tell myself is:
"I DON'T KNOW!!!"...............

i feel the breeze blow on my face,

ur breath i sense so deep

our first kiss it is grace

I am pouring these lines as i weep.........



I did think always my heart was so strong

I had never known what i would witness

loves pain showed up with a kiss

with u dying in my arms, i cry................

A beauty disguised u came to me
after u left, whom would I see
the love I had from the first day
will remain the same , come what may....................

I can feel and see the beating thing
deep within your bosom I can hear it crying
it weeps to me as still I stood
" OH DEAREST FIRE, I AM YOUR WOOD"....................

I look into your eyes, I sense the pain
your eyes fill as I convince in vain
you hide your tears, seem strong you may
but you would regret this moment someday.................

losing my heart to u, I walk
I spoke all that while, you didn't talk
defeat I did accept, nomore I try
however hurt I am, I've forgotten to cry....................