Was it deliberate????
Why am I so broken?
I feel a lack of power
Instinctive reactions
I ask my inner self for answers
And all I get in return
Inner voice yells out
"Its not deliberate Loser, Get a Life"

I wanna Fly...
Fly so high, that I will look like a star...
Fly so high, that I will shine so bright!!!!

Do you remember the angel,
The angel I saw in the aeroplane...
Oh, and the side effects she causes,
She called me her star
And, I am loving it!!!!!

Is it me who is feeling insane
Or are you driving me mad???
I don't know how
But, what I have been thinking
All day, all night
Is you!!!!


PS: Random thought... nobody in mind

Oh dearest Angel....
Look up and smile wide,
For you have nothing to worry anymore
I am by your side now!!!! 

I walked down the aisle
In the aeroplane of life
There I saw a face, that stood out
A fear I see in the face, a strange feeling of discomfort
Then I realised, she was an angel travelling with humans........ :)

A million stars stare down
Myriad Colours of jealousy around
Feels numb, a sense of peace,
Giving company to the lonely dark streets
He is a vagabond, in search of his dreams!!!!

As I fly through the storm,
Soaring high from where I fell to the ground
The wandering lady in blue whispers into my ear
"Everybody needs to fall, to learn to rise"!!!!!

Can't stop thinking... Day and night!!!

Many faces I have seen,
Many people I have met,
And Many more I observed
But, there always remained an empty space in them....

Some were truly blank,
And a few others, thought they were not empty
But, none could win me outright
I became an emperor, none could conquer.......

As my ego began building
I saw this beautiful face
I saw a charisma, a light at the end of the tunnel
But, soon I thought into thin air she would glide.....

Believing I would remain unconquered,
I took a stride
I had a closer look,
I lost myself, without a fight.....

Such intensity, such beauty
Like nobody ever in my sight
She stood smiling
Dumbstruck, my lips were sealed tight....

Gathered courage, I smiled
Spoke cautiously, hearing my heart pounding loud outside
She spoke back, with that coarse voice
My heart was in my throat, ready to pop outside
I just can't stop thinking.. That voice haunts me Day and Night.......

A Lone Tree!!!!

The clouds come together
Skies go dark in a flash
Wind begins to blow strong
Taking everything that comes its way....

Here I stand in the middle
A lone tree, rough and strong
The wind slaps me across my face
I duck, I shuffle, I dodge.....

The wind loses temper,
Starts punching me hard
I smile through the blood on my face
"I have nothing left to lose", I say.......

The winds loses energy,
It goes away
Tearing me apart, tiring me out
I still stand my ground, I don't complain.......

I may look for some sunshine
Like a shoulder to rest my head on
And, doves to soothen me
To tell me, Everything is going to be fine.....

I am not weak
Nor am I depending
I just stood through what the "strong" fear
Knowing the storm would strike again.....
I would always stand there
Till I calm it down to breeze
All I seek is its peace
Though Happiness may be the small price I must pay......

Moonlight to Sunshine!!!!!

I stayed up from moonlight to sunshine
Thought about random moment of life
The words I heard and the words I spoke
The songs that were sung,
The jokes guffawed at,
I lost count on my Lagers,
They did not seem bitter anymore.....
I thought.......

There was fear in me,
I did not want to think
I was afraid they would be gone
I sought reassurance that I was awake
There was music playing in my speakers
But, not playing in my head
Felt like my ears have barricades
Music was not soothing anymore....
I feared......

And, then came the sunshine
Bringing along with it, a new hope
A ray of immortal light, very divine
I realised the truth
This was life's most important journey,
And, it began long ago
I prayed to finish the journey
And suddenly, Lager was bitter
And, no more left to have....
The barricades were crashed
Music played loud into my ears.....
My mind felt at ease;
With light came hope.... A prayer
I hope.......

There are many people I must prove to
Many mouths I must shut,
And leave many other mouths wide open....

Never feels good to feel like an underdog
Not easy to just smile and take it all
I always gave it back; successfully
But, there was something, that was still missing....


I realised, giving it back was vain
I can't keep answering every person coming my way
All I needed was that spark
And, I could answer the whole world in a go.....


My mind wandered all around,
Into prohibited zones, and was never prosecuted
But, I remained unsatisfied
The quest, though silent, still remained....


Every night as I decide to sleep
I promise myself never to let myself down
For, it is not a selfish need anymore
It is an aspiration,

I am falling apart inside
Complicating everything I feel
My heart seems to be bleeding to death
But, I smile and walk the path......

Living as two persons
Nothing new to me
The world sees "The Me"
My dearest know "The True Me"....

The people inside have risen in count
Three faces that I own
One person consoles, another fakes a smile
The third hides far behind the other two shadows.

Truly destructive it gets
My own ones can't judge the fake
Though I lay behind two masks
I still continue to wither..... deep within!!!!!

As the light shines into my face
And, the numbness of the morning plays its game,
I feel something in my chest
Something absolutely strange.......
Like a cannon ball crushing my ribs
Not from outside, but from within....

As I try getting up
Feels like I have been tied down
My head is drenched in sweat
And throat parched like a desert
I try to shout, can't speak a word......

And suddenly, a burst of adrenalin
I pull myself up in a go
With such ease, as if I had never been tied
I look around to see where I am
Smiling at what I saw, I go back to sleep!!!!!!

Behind the clown's mask!!!!!!!!!

A free verse out of sheer imagination to express that how ever calm a person may be, how much ever he tolerates what comes to him, if his loved ones are ill treated, the devil that he hides would just come out..........

Lately, its been hard, really hard
Breathing like I am sick, very bad
Tracing back I know how it began
Oh my God, It was a cacophony.......

Like a gun's magazine, so rusted
Ages since I last rested
I take a pen to write this song
Waiting eagerly, shouldn't take too long.......

Is there rage burning in me?
Looking into me, if I could see
Traces of pain in my body so numb
Is it me, Am I just being dumb........

Chasing him I run so fast
Now I don't want him to last
How could he say something like that
I shall not forgive this brat........

I hold him by his collar
Tries bribing, offers me in dollar
He escapes, runs up the ladder
I kick him hard that he leaks his bladder.......

He is shocked, never seen me this way
I would kill him if I may
Mortal art I know, martial art I train
Human I am and so I remain.....

I sit him down, I speak to him
"All these days I made you laugh till the brim
A clown I may seem, don't take me for a ride
Behind that mask is where I hide........."

"Thats my girl" I tell to him
The look on my face, he goes dim
She is so fine, He spoke to her badly
I turn him black and blue, I ask him to flee.......

I walk to her, hold her against my chest
As she feels my heart, I tell her it was God's test
Assuring her my presence, come what may
"My love for you is such, My life I can lay........"

Compromise - What does it mean?

I don't know if this is a poem. but, for sure, I have just expressed a confusion I have. I often hear people use this term, and I keep asking myself, why is this word used in negative aspect always?Why does it sound so pitiful? And a million other questions. But, today, I am just sharing one question....

Compromise, that is a big word

It is often used

And I am yet unaware what it means....

As we move in life,

And good comes across

We try to own them, and succeed

But, when we try discarding

Out of boredom, confusion, let be anything

If the good doesn't leave,

Is that what we call compromise?

We build hopes, we build relations

At every step, we see tempting doors

We wish to enter, putting everything built at stake

But, we don't.... Is this compromise?

We seek the best, we believe we have it

But with time, we look only at the faults

We see something new, think it is the best

We only look at what the old stuff lacks, forget the good

Now we seek something else, thinking to discard the old

If you still stick to the old, Would it mean compromise????

I am in the dark

Trying to know what compromise is

Why is it often used?

Or, has it always been misused?