Behind the clown's mask!!!!!!!!!

A free verse out of sheer imagination to express that how ever calm a person may be, how much ever he tolerates what comes to him, if his loved ones are ill treated, the devil that he hides would just come out..........

Lately, its been hard, really hard
Breathing like I am sick, very bad
Tracing back I know how it began
Oh my God, It was a cacophony.......

Like a gun's magazine, so rusted
Ages since I last rested
I take a pen to write this song
Waiting eagerly, shouldn't take too long.......

Is there rage burning in me?
Looking into me, if I could see
Traces of pain in my body so numb
Is it me, Am I just being dumb........

Chasing him I run so fast
Now I don't want him to last
How could he say something like that
I shall not forgive this brat........

I hold him by his collar
Tries bribing, offers me in dollar
He escapes, runs up the ladder
I kick him hard that he leaks his bladder.......

He is shocked, never seen me this way
I would kill him if I may
Mortal art I know, martial art I train
Human I am and so I remain.....

I sit him down, I speak to him
"All these days I made you laugh till the brim
A clown I may seem, don't take me for a ride
Behind that mask is where I hide........."

"Thats my girl" I tell to him
The look on my face, he goes dim
She is so fine, He spoke to her badly
I turn him black and blue, I ask him to flee.......

I walk to her, hold her against my chest
As she feels my heart, I tell her it was God's test
Assuring her my presence, come what may
"My love for you is such, My life I can lay........"